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Introduction to Life IS FairIn my thirties, depression seeped into my soul and stayed for four years. The day I burst into tears for no discernable reason, in the middle of an exercise class, I knew I was in trouble.The bottom line of this exhausting time in my life was that it seemed no matter how hard I worked at every aspect of my life, nothing appeared to improve. Most of us are taught that hard work will eventually pay off. Not for me, it seemed. Although I was never remotely suicidal, there simply seemed no point to life. Life seemed to be only a series of random events. Just as I was finally about to seek professional help, the depression went away. Perhaps it left because by now I'd decided to settle for what I had and make the best of it. For the time being, I'd settled for plan B. "Why did I have to go through that awful depression?" I asked Marge, a talented medium, in 1982. Her reply showed me there was a specific reason for that bleak period of my life. "Honey, you needed to grow through that pain so that when you found out about reincarnation, you'd appreciate the knowledge far more than the average person. It would make you want to tell everyone how wonderful it is to understand that there's a reason for everything that happens to us. And why we're here in this lifetime. If we don't understand reincarnation, we'll never have real peace of mind." Another medium, Audrey White, also referred to my depression in a reading about six years after the fact. "You would have been very depressed," she said. "You would have felt like, 'Stop the world, I want to get off.'" Yes, indeed. Audrey was a phenomenal medium who was ahead of her time. Occasionally during a reading, in her deep smoker's voice, she wouldn't hesitate to tell a client to stop talking, and in no uncertain terms. She said she saw the events in her mind's eye as if they were happening on a television screen. When someone talked during this time, she explained, it was like a flash of static across the moving pictures. Audrey referred to the first reading she gave me as a "soul pattern reading." It gave me an overview of all my significant past lives and explained the lessons I had yet to learn. "You could have died at 40," said Audrey, "because you'd paid off your karmic lessons. But you chose to stay on in a new life and take on the role of teacher. Because of this, you had to have everything ripped out from under you…all the old habits, people and situations so that you could start fresh. You had to learn to walk and talk all over again after age 40." The depression was not a punishment, but a karmic gift, a lesson to advance my spiritual understanding. It was only one of many valuable lessons over my first 40 years:
"The truth in the Bible has been muddled and misquoted but it will be straightened out in this lifetime and you'll be part of it. You'll be helped by the very best on this side and the other. You'll walk with men and women you've walked with before. These hook-ups have to be made to get the work completed. You're a spiritual renegade. You're going to upset and rile a lot of people in the process." Audrey's reading explained the 180-degree change in my life that had occurred the previous year after my first-ever psychic reading from Mary Muhlmann. Since meeting Mary, my new interest in reincarnation, psychics and, for a few years, anything metaphysical had been all-consuming. It led me to write my first book, Dead As I'll Ever Be, about the importance of psychics and mediums. Her reading also explained how the circumstances of my life, some of which were decidedly unpleasant at the time, led here, to this second book. It's the fulfillment of a mission I've been pursuing for many lifetimes. There Is a Plan for All of Us My good fortune in this life has been to discover the treasure of insight that talented mediums and psychics can provide. This insight has not only helped me to gracefully get through some of the hard parts of my life, but in some cases, the forewarning of predicted events has prepared me to deal with them more effectively. Armed with the understanding of why the events in my life have happened, I no longer feel sorry for myself. I know beyond any doubt that none of my experiences have been wasted. Furthermore, the prediction of these events convinces me they were part of my soul's plan for growth. In this book, I hope to show how my experiences have, in retrospect, turned out to be blessings in disguise. I want to open doors into understanding and respect for our individual, unseen plans in life. From all the information I've accumulated through psychic readings, books and experience combined with my own sense of reason, I know there's an outline for each of us-not predetermined but chosen by us before we're born-for the lessons we need in order to grow spiritually. Therefore, there must be a planner. So that after all our lives have been lived, and all the bad things and good have balanced each other out, life is ultimately fair. |
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